I had a really, really, REALLY bad audition this week. This rarely happens anymore: I prepare and I bring my "A" game. Sometimes it feels GREAT, sometimes just 'okay,' but very rarely just plain awful. I went to a commercial callback feeling really good because my initial audition was great and I felt like the gig was mine to lose. And I bombed miserably. My "A" game just wasn't good enough. I'm well aware that improv is not my forte, and no (honestly), I don't want to go to an improv class. There are people who do that and do it well. There are people who love improv. I am neither, and I'm okay with admitting that. So when the callback required that I improv off of my "family," I said some inappropriate things. Not cursing or anything like that, just a lot of nonsensical stuff. After a few misfires I just clammed up and wanted to get out of there. It was a really bad feeling. I went from that commercial callback to an audition for a new 1/2 hr. comedy, taking extra time to sit in my car and adjust my attitude so that I could let go of what had just happened, and focus on the next one. The second audition went well, but as soon as I was done, my bad attitude was sitting right there waiting for me and it rode on my back until the next day. I've since let it go - what'cha gonna do? But sucking sucks.
Onward and upward. And forward.