I'm not good at being morose for long periods of time, nor do I want to get good at it, so instead of focusing on my financial 'have nots' (which should be better by mid-January), I'm going to focus on some things that are going well and bringing me joy.
Before I do that, though, I do want to say that I've had some conversations with fellow actors (in person and via email) in which they actually told me that they were actually relieved to know that they weren't/ aren't the only people who are going through this situation. Sometimes during downturns we feel like we are the only one, "woe is me," "nobody understands," and all that jazz. Not true. Y'all know how much I love quotes, and this one comes to mind:
"When God closes a door, He opens up a window, but sometimes it's hell in the hallway." I have no idea who said it, but the truth of it cracks me up. So I'll just stand in the hallway and laugh now, okay? lol
Alright, moving on...
Yesterday, I had an audition for "90210." This is my fifth time going to see them. Usually I read with the casting director (whom I always thought was the casting associate because he looks so, so young), and yesterday I read with the casting associate. Though we've never met before, he knew my name (that's always nice), and when I offered him my pic & res, he said "Oh, I already have your picture." I had to chuckle because, unless they've thrown some away, they have FOUR already. I do like the fact that almost everytime I go in, I have a new credit on my resume though. This time it was "Sons of Tucson" but he didn't get to see it.
I did the scene as I prepared it, and he redirected me. Instead of being an authoritarian, he wanted more warmth. I did it 4 times, and on the 4th time we both felt it was right. I did a goofy little hop right there in the office because it just felt GOOD, you know? Then he had me do the other scene (when I say
"scene," I mean "line") three times. It felt solid all three times. Great to meet him, and if I don't book this one, hopefully they'll keep calling me, I'll keep driving way the heck out to friggin' West Egypt to see them, and when it's for me, I'll book it.
Tomorrow I go in for "Three Rivers." Send happy thoughts my way!