I know I should be getting some sleep, but I'm up listening to Monk (big ups to Tony Shalhoub for winning an Emmy!!) while I blog, eat cole slaw (yes, at 2AM--and I wonder why I can't lose this last 20 lbs.) and revise my whole marketing strategy in my head. "If you do what you always did, you get what you always got." I don't know who originally said that, but truer words were never spoken. Although I have been inching ahead in my career, that's not enough for me. Here's another quote for ya: "One can never consent to creep when one feels the impulse to soar." (Helen Keller) It's time to fly. That is going to require me to make a lot of changes in my life. I love to act, but I have gotten overwhelmed with "the business". I am self-motivated and get what I want. Always. Sometimes I find out that I don't want it after I get it (lol), but I ALWAYS get what I want. I just lean into it and don't stop working whatever angle I have to work until I get there. The sheer volume of work required to get anywhere in this business wore me out but I'm either too stubborn or too stupid to give up, so I took some time to clear my head, learn some new tricks from people who are qualified to give advice, and I see how I need to approach this business. Instead of putting myself out there and hoping for a "big break" I have to stay in the trenches and BUILD this thing!! Take full ownership (which I THOUGHT I was doing, but now I see the "holes" in my plan) and execute. It's time to put up or shut up. I could be living somewhere much less congested, be able to afford a cottage on the beach or whatever-the-heck-else I want. Acting is what I do, and I need to be fully committed to doing what it requires or get outta Dodge.
I'll leave you with one more quote: "Hope is not a plan." (Anderson Cooper)